Weekly WI

Hello. Sorry I'm a little late checking in today. I'm not on the computer much when I am not at work. Having Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday off means I get to enjoy my weekend while most of you are working your work week.

I had a loss of 0.6 pounds today at my WW meeting. I'll take it! I met Jamie for a walk at the mall before the meeting. We were both not sure if it would effect the scale or not. For me, I didn't see a change from when I got on the scale at home this morning. Jamie ended up with a three pound loss. Yeah! It is great to walk and chat and it is so much more enjoyable than other exercise.

My goal for my days off is to try and get in 10,000 steps. We walked about 3 miles at the mall and Kenyon and I have been out running errands. It is now just 4:30 pm and I have walked almost 13,000 steps. Yeah!

So far my day off has been pretty uneventful. I got my car washed and need to clean house this weekend as well. We had a late breakfast at LePeep and are going to redeem some free money at Tucanos tonight. Yummmmm....

Good thing I got in some activity.

See ya.

Ramblings And Warm Buns

Good Morning and welcome to the work week.  I am actually on my Friday today.  I have the next three days off.  Yahooo!  It is weird but at first I was bummed about not having much overtime.  Now I’m kind of liking it!

I don’t have much to share today.  I suspect my WI tomorrow won’t be pretty but I’ll recap all that in a day or two.  Today I wanted to talk about my new car and my warm buns.

When I bought my new car I knew I might have to give up a few luxuries I had come to love with my HHR.  My HHR was all equipped with remote start, heated seats, and a sunroof.  I really love some of those items.  I knew when shopping for a new car there would be a “not necessary but would like” list and also a “non-negotiable” list. 

 

Remote start was on my “non-negotiable” list.  My HHR was the first car I’ve ever had with remote start and there was no way I was giving that up.  When you work shift work there are times I want my car to be warmed up and defrosted before I leave the parking lot.  Of course I could walk outside and start up my car like most average Americans.  However, I’m super spoiled and would rather start my car from the comfort of the heated building.  Therefore, this was on the “non-negotiable” list.  Since my new Kia Soul didn’t have remote start already installed, I had one installed for an added cost last week.  Ahhhhh….all is right with the world again.

Heated seats was on my “not necessary but would like” list.  I loved the heated seats in my HHR and was pleasantly surprised when I found out they were included.  I never knew a world existed where you could be warm and comfy AND have warm buns when you are driving in your car.  Boy did I love it.  I didn’t want to exclude buying a car because it didn't have heated seats.  I knew those additions would up the price of the car.  So, sadly, my Kia Soul does not have heated seats.

I have been trying to convince myself it was okay to not have heated seats but honestly, I miss it.  I don’t think anybody (other than Kenyon) realizes how much I used my heated seats.  I used it ALL THE TIME.  So I really do miss it.  At a later date I could look into the upgrade, if available, for an added cost.  But in the meantime, my dear loving husband has figured out a way to heat my buns.  Nothing says true love like warm buns.

 

Kenyon bought me a heated seat cushion off Amazon.  It is amazing!  I love it and despite remembering to plug and un-plug the seat cushion, it warms just as my heated seats did.  Kenyon takes such good care of me.

The other included feature I got with my new Kia Soul was the Bluetooth connection through the radio.  I love having my phone sync so I can play my iTunes right through the radio.  I have come to really love the hands free phone feature too.  Very slick.

Every new car needs to look clean so I have purchased the unlimited car wash pass at Mr. Hotshine.  So far I am getting my monies worth in going to the car wash at least twice a week.  The fun part of having unlimited washes is that I don’t feel back for washing my car the day before it snows.  I’ll just go wash it again after.  It is $19.99 a month and there is no contract so I can cancel anytime.  It has been wonderful.

 

 

Speaking of snow, it is snowing today so work could be touch-and-go.  So far we are faring well.  We will see how the day progresses.

Struggling

 

I’ve been struggling with my food this week and quite a bit the last few days.  It is like I can’t tell myself “no” to temptations.  I did tell myself not to eat out last night, after I had already had a Los Betos big breakfast burrito and a strawberry milkshake earlier in the day, so that was progress.  Then I proceeded to snack on this-and-that at home last night.  Clearly I’m not doing well when it comes to weight loss.

I’m not sure if it is just the work shift change-over week or that time of the month but I’m feeling out of it this week.  My drive is just not there.  Really, my drive hasn’t been consistent for the past year.

I have no idea how I lost 130 pounds at one time in my life.  I have no idea how I buckled down, stuck with it, and powered through for two full years.  And then how I managed to stick with it for five years after that.  I’d always known I would keep my weight off as long as I had no major complications.  I chose not to have a baby (for other reasons not just weight loss) and up until my back issues started, I had been doing just fine.  Since last August though I just can’t seem to kick start the weight loss and I just keep drowning further and further.

There are days I feel okay and days I think I look good.  However, my clothes don’t fit the same and so I can’t deny that the excess weight is noticeable.  I’m sure years ago when I was going up the scale I was feeling the same way but I was just not as aware of it.  Being aware of going up the scale is a good thing, it just feels really frustrating to feel like you see it happening but don’t know how to stop it.

I wish I never had back issues.  If I hadn’t had back issues I suspect I would still be trucking along at my goal weight, or pretty close to it.  I should have made better decisions after my exercise started to drop off.  I should have done better to stick with it or at the very least been more careful with my eating.  I can’t go back.  I wish I could.

I really don’t know where to go from here.  I just have to keep moving forward.  I wish I could buckle down and get this extra weight off. 

Why does it feel so hard?