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I have a new daily points allowance.

 

When I do my new member orientation and explain the daily points budget, I tell my members when they go up in birthdays or down in weight, their points budget decreases. 

 

Since you can’t really go down in age…my weight being up has given me a new daily points allowance.  I have never wanted to be back at 23 daily points so badly.

 

I’ve been on a roller coaster for a while now.  I love roller coasters, but I want to get off this one.

 

After our Oceanside vacation, I saw a number on the scale that was bad.  Real bad.  When I climbed back up the scale in 2013, gaining a total of 80 pounds in three years, I don’t really remember being aware of the gain.  I remember I was struggling but I don’t really remember what that time was like. 

 

For the last few months, the scale has been climbing and this time I am aware.  My jeans are tight, my middle section hangs over my pants, my clothes don’t fit well, I’m sluggish, I’m tired, my joints ache, I’ve got bouts of acne, and the worst…itchy skin!  The skin folds under my pants itch.

 

I told you it was real bad.

 

I’m choosing today to be proud of saying NO to cookies!  I entered our cookie exchange at work before I stepped on the scale and almost cancelled.  Instead, I decided to bake my cookies and share with my co-workers.  To add to the cookie quantity, the eye bank representative came in with a try of cookies from Costco.  And yet, I persisted.  I added a quick add with a smiley face emoji for 0 pounds which says “no cookies.”

 

One day at a time.  One meal at a time.