I feel like I’m in an episode of Where’s Waldo…
…Where’s Lindsay?
Oh boy, have I been neglecting this space for quite
some time now.
I had my wellness visit with the general practitioner
I established last year. I found out I could
cancel my visits with both the general practitioner at the OB office, I really
liked her, and my endocrinologist, whom I hear may have moved to North
Carolina. I really liked him too but
never really liked his staff. In one
doctor’s visit, I went from three doctors to one. Not a bad set up! Good thing I really like my new GP.
Last year we discussed some medication to manage
anxiety. I was struggling with some
stress at work, and it started to manifest as panic attacks. We agreed I’d give counseling a try and I
really love my counselor. I found a
great fit and routinely check in with her bi-weekly. I’m just still feeling “off” and I’ve been
feeling that way for a while. My doctor
prescribed 10 mg of the generic for Lexapro.
Bi-bolar runs deep in my family history and I don’t
feel the lows as much as my siblings. I do
believe for a long time I have been functioning “high” a lot. Manic phases got me manifest in the crazy
impulsive stuff I do, probably because it is an escape from something I am
avoiding. I have always been a nail
biter and for a while now I’ve been tearing apart my cuticles…. connected to
anxiety.
Lately, coming to work has felt daunting. I’ve also been taking a lot of time off which
makes coming back to work equally difficult.
It doesn’t help that I over-schedule myself and after
a while, that “high” starts to feel too difficult to manage. With limited commitments this week, and some
cancelations (extra doctor’s visits) I spend time during my weekend (my days
off are Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday) sleeping a lot and resting more. I am also on day three of my new medication
and feeling good. I hope this is the
turnaround point to getting my mojo back.
On a lighter note, we celebrated National
Telecommunications Week! Sunday was
Hawaiian Day.
Today is pajama day.
It feels weird to be at work in lounge clothes and a robe. I was watching a Hallmark movie and drinking
my coffee before work. I almost forgot I
had to be responsible today!
