Where's Waldo

I feel like I’m in an episode of Where’s Waldo…

…Where’s Lindsay?

 

Oh boy, have I been neglecting this space for quite some time now.

 

I had my wellness visit with the general practitioner I established last year.  I found out I could cancel my visits with both the general practitioner at the OB office, I really liked her, and my endocrinologist, whom I hear may have moved to North Carolina.  I really liked him too but never really liked his staff.  In one doctor’s visit, I went from three doctors to one.  Not a bad set up!  Good thing I really like my new GP.

 

Last year we discussed some medication to manage anxiety.  I was struggling with some stress at work, and it started to manifest as panic attacks.  We agreed I’d give counseling a try and I really love my counselor.  I found a great fit and routinely check in with her bi-weekly.  I’m just still feeling “off” and I’ve been feeling that way for a while.  My doctor prescribed 10 mg of the generic for Lexapro. 

 

Bi-bolar runs deep in my family history and I don’t feel the lows as much as my siblings.  I do believe for a long time I have been functioning “high” a lot.  Manic phases got me manifest in the crazy impulsive stuff I do, probably because it is an escape from something I am avoiding.  I have always been a nail biter and for a while now I’ve been tearing apart my cuticles…. connected to anxiety. 

 

Lately, coming to work has felt daunting.  I’ve also been taking a lot of time off which makes coming back to work equally difficult.

 

It doesn’t help that I over-schedule myself and after a while, that “high” starts to feel too difficult to manage.  With limited commitments this week, and some cancelations (extra doctor’s visits) I spend time during my weekend (my days off are Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday) sleeping a lot and resting more.  I am also on day three of my new medication and feeling good.  I hope this is the turnaround point to getting my mojo back.

 

On a lighter note, we celebrated National Telecommunications Week!  Sunday was Hawaiian Day.

 

Today is pajama day.  It feels weird to be at work in lounge clothes and a robe.  I was watching a Hallmark movie and drinking my coffee before work.  I almost forgot I had to be responsible today!