I
don't want this blog to become all “Downer Debby” while I am
slowly (and by slowly I mean sometimes it feels like a snails pace)
mending my achey back. But I that how I am feeling lately.
One
day I won't have much pain and I'll start to feel positive. Then, I
wake up and there is still some pain. This isn't unusual as the
issue I am dealing with means there will be some pain when I first
wake up due to the fluid re-distributing while I sleep. Instead of
starting the day on a positive note I instantly get upset and feel
deflated. Yesterday I thought I would get on the scale at home to
see how things are going this week. Yeah, not a good idea!
This
is why I don't get on the scale more than once a week. I can't
handle the ups and downs that might not be true weight gain.
Mentally I just can't cope with it. I don't want to turn into one of
those people that let the scale dictate my mood or what I do or don't
eat for the day.
I
know my food plan can be cleaner. I always feel like I am doing well
and try to find that balance between healthy and not feeling
deprived. Yet, there is still many extras I should do without while
I am dealing with this situation with my back. I guess it is a
choice between having a lot to lose and not feeling deprived or
having little to lose but feeling semi-deprived? I don't know if
that is really my only two choices either.
I
am upset. I worry. I hate when I worry about things that I cannot
control. I found this on Facebook.
Right
now I am just feeling down.