I’ve been intending to sit down for
the last week and get you all caught up on my WW journey as well as life in
general. I just can’t even believe how
fast the days go by. I haven’t even started
off my Hello July blog post. Yet, here
we are already almost a week into July.
My weigh-in last week included
celebrating the six year anniversary of when I reached my highest regain weight
of 253 pounds, a re-gain of 78 pounds from reaching my goal weight. I am proud to share that as of last week, I
have officially lost 62 of those pounds.
It was six years ago that I had to
take a hard look at my life, my health, and really assess that I was ready to
make the changed necessary to start the scale on the downhill journey. I was reading back over some of my blog posts
during that time. In The Elephant In TheRoom, I wrote:
“Since I
regained weight, I often feel it is an elephant-in-the-room type situation when
I am in social gatherings with people I’ve not seen in a while. I had two graduation parties to attend last
Saturday and I have one to attend later today. I love seeing my extended family. They too were very supportive and complimentary of
my weight loss. It now feels like I’m coming to the party with
this large invisible animal on my back and something that we just don't
talk about.”
I was able to refocus, re-connect
with my WW program, and find a version of that person that was so successful
back in 2009. In The Comeback Kid, I
wrote:
“Finally…a few weeks ago something shifted and I wanted to make some changes that would
result in positives and not just self-loathing. At my WW meeting several people shared how they
wanted to quit but knew that it wasn’t the answer. I had actually quit. I had given up on tracking, healthy eating, and
activity. So even though I might have been checking in with
my meetings once a month, I wasn’t actually working the WW program. And I was gaining weight which only made the self-loathing
worse.”
Boy have I made a comeback. From July 2016 until now, the scale has
followed a downward trend. Although I am
still human and there were times along this last six years that I have had an
uptick and had to re-gain control again.
A really big positive is that I’ve been able to re-gain control immediately
and didn’t lit it turn into another spiral.
I’ve been working hard to stay focused on those times throughout each
year when I tend to struggle with weight gain.
As long as I stay mindful of this, I am more likely to make the
correction sooner thus staying on top of it.
This last week I really struggled
with staying on track. It was a constant
mental swing between “you shouldn’t be so reckless” and “you’ll get back on
track after Girls Weekend.” The hard
part with this type of thinking is how quickly the spiral happens and the fast
weight gain. I wasn’t sure if I’d step
on the scale this week or if I’d skip in lieu of knowing that after Girls
Weekend, I’ll get back on track 100%. I
also don’t want this week to overshadow the positive vibe of last week and how
hard I have worked at staying committed these last six years.
The real hard truth is I should not
let the number on the scale or a week where I have been off track to cast a
shadow on all the successes I’ve achieved.
Looking back at my weight record for the first week of July 2020, I was
still in the 200s. Regardless of what
the scale says, if I actually step on it or not, I have a lot of successes to
celebrate. I plan to have a really great
time on our Girls Weekend adventures and with my extra Dawny time.
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