I had a really bad urge to be “reckless” or “careless”
with my calories the other night. Occasionally,
I get into that mood where I just want to eat whatever I feel like. Don’t get me wrong, WW allows you to eat
whatever you want (in moderation and portion control) you just have to count
the points for it.
I’ll rewind a few weeks and start there.
I was feeling that new and exciting energy that comes
with the first day of a brand shiny new year.
There was many success stories floating around, our WW meetings began to
fill up again, and the gym memberships were on the rise. It is just a good time to start fresh! I had gone through my tracker and figured up
all the PPVs for the extra foods/treats/coffee shop stops I was consuming. I was shocked to see how fast those little
points each day add up. By the end of
the week I had consumed sometimes as much as 30 extra PPVs just in those
everyday treats.
So I cut back. I
mean REALLY cut back. I stopped going to
Dutch Brothers for my decaf Americano with sugar free caramel sauce, and a
little bit of cream. I stopped going to
the yogurt shop for build-your-own yogurt bowls.
I stopped having my two Hershey Kisses after my lunch/dinners at work and
instead started chewing gum.
I didn’t go completely cold turkey. I focused more on making sure I really
evaluated the importance of where I spent my extra points and that it was worth
it. Having these treats everyday meant
it wasn’t a treat anymore and I was taking it for granted.
I had been doing really well with my WW plan. I can’t say I dropped a lot of weight but I
was still maintaining in my goal range and started to drift closer to the lower
end. I am focusing on maintaining right
now. I like being in goal range and
getting my free eTools each month!
Last Saturday the rebellious side of my really wanted
out.
I attended a Basque dance with my parents where we saw performers
dance, armatures participate in a weight lifting contests and tug-of-wars, drank
beer, and ate chorizos and beans. The
beans lacked spice so I only ate half the bowl and I ate my chorizo sans the
bun. Since I am a volume eater, I was
left unsatisfied. I wanted more food for
the large amount of PPVs I had just spent.
As the events were nearing the end I started to think about all the
places I could stop and eat on my way home.
I was feeling hungry since several hours had passed. I thought of actual food (Panda Express) and
sugary goodness food (Sonic or Arctic Circle for ice cream and Carinos for
chocolate cake). I knew I was truly hungry
but I also knew I was tired of feeling like eating wasn’t fun anymore.
This is where I should pause to say I really don’t know
what I’m talking about because I have enjoyed sweets over the last few
weeks. I was just suddenly feeling a
void. And I wanted to be reckless.
So what stopped me? I
looked up the PPVs for the chorizo, beer, and beans on the ride back to my parent’s
house to get my car. I had spent 24 PPVs
alone just on that evening meal. What else stopped me? It was now 10:30pm and there wasn’t much really open in the
way of real food or even dessert-y food.
I did end up stopping at a grocery store that was open
and got a piece of chocolate cake and some ice cream that was on
special. I went home, ate a leftover
stuffed pepper first, and then enjoyed a small bit of cake and a small bit of
ice cream. I counted it all and was ended my night in the negative by only 10 PPVs. That
was easily covered by a few APs and some of my WPPAs.
I think that reckless person is still trying to get
out. Monday after WW I did indulge in
more food than necessary and used more WPPAs than necessary. I hope it is out of my system. I am not sure though. I didn’t grocery shop this week and am just
sort of “winging it”. I think I am just
feeling overwhelmed right now and just need a little bit of a break. I am not worried of a spiral out of
control. I know this will pass. I suspect this will pass and I will be
energized to go at it full force again.
In the meantime, I plan to eat out a few extra times this week and
enjoy a few more treats. I even have two events planned already for St. Patt's Day. We will see
what the scale shows next week. Good
news is I have already done my WI for March.
If I do end up with a gain, I won’t beat myself up. I will allow myself a pass on the scale for
one week only. If my reckless behavior
stretches into two weeks…I must get on the scale. NO exceptions!
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