Have
you all seen this?
Ain't
that the truth.
I've
been pretty quiet on this blog space lately because I feel like a big
phony. I'm supposed to be writing about maintenance and yet I can't
seem to get my food choices under control. This has me thinking that
it is best to avoid this space all together and perhaps you will not
notice. I think you are smarter than that though and you have
already figured it out. Sigh.
I
think as though I've been dealing with the “last meal” mentality.
I know I need to get back on track and the new WW program changes
rolling out this week makes me energized again. So I keep telling
myself that this splurge is the “last splurge for a while.” The
only problem is that it isn't the last splurge because I splurge
again at the next meal or the next day. I believe my thinking is
perhaps skewed.
My
trainer that I've been with for the last four weeks is pretty health
conscious. She counts calories and has been working out like crazy
so she can enjoy some holiday treats/splurges. This has been helpful
in that it does make me think about my food choices. Of course,
after thinking about it I've still been making the wrong choices.
But regardless, I am giving it some thought. I mentioned I
was thinking of eating out tonight and she tried to encourage me not
to. She has been saying stuff like “is that going to be helpful to
your goals.” I almost went home and had found something for dinner
but instead I went out. I am also eating a sweet treat as I write
this blog.
See,
I told you I was a phony. (hangs head in shame) I also feel
guilty. I know I shouldn't feel guilty but I do. I've already got
some food/drink plans lined up for Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. I
will attend my WW meeting on Thursday to learn the new program. I am
not sure yet if I'll start tracking again. I think it would be a
good idea to get used to the new Smart Points values for the foods I
will be eating, even if that means higher point amounts. I know I
need to re-focus so I can stop all this nonsense.
I
hope you can forgive me for my absence and my lack of healthy eating.
6 comments:
I am sorry for your struggles. But you are still a huge inspiration to me. Everyone has these times in their weight loss journey. Thank you for being honest and continuing to post.
Thank you. Your support is much appreciated.
i know you know how wonderful I think you are, despite your recent struggles.. but the fact that you put it all out there, and you keep it real, says a LOT LOT LOT about you =-)
I know you'll find your way as soon as your ready
Thats super awesome that you are hooked up with such inspiration.. maybe it will rub off on you soon =-)
Stay strong and true to you friend
Why would you think that you're a phony? Your struggle is very real and resonates with probably most of us. You want to lose/maintain yet you want the joy of eating what you want. The two, regrettably, are incompatible.
You'll make a choice one way or the other - either you'll accept the struggle and lose again or you'll say "heck with it" and gain. The thing is, reality is often a combination of those two - sometimes it's easier than others to regain control.
It's been a long time since you lost. It's got to be hard to do it for so long. I'm only in year five and I hate it. Just hate it. But for me, the spectre of diabetes looms if I gain weight.
Hang in there. If you need an opinion, what you *should* do is be strict six days a week and choose one day as "indulge" day. Because you simply can't do 1 strict day and 6 indulge. The body won't let you.
Why can't brussels sprouts taste like chocolate? *grin*
Bonz, from WW boards
So I can't stop thinking about what you have written. I'm not sure how it is you think you're a phony. You are depicting life here. You've been so open and honest about life. There's nothing mystical or magical with weight loss or weight maintenance. You're by far a phony. if you're real and dealing with life. Not to mention you're so honest open and straightforward here that is what people need. All too often people, and only show the sunshine and rainbows. Very rarely do you find people who are honest and share the good the bad and the ugly. You're amazing. In my eyes you're still at She-ro
Thank you all for your continued support. Bon M, you are correct in that I need to stay focused more days splurge more days. I'll get this figured out....eventually.
Thank you Dawny for always being there as a friend and sounding board.
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