Have you all seen this?
Ain't that the truth.
I've been pretty quiet on this blog space lately because I feel like a big phony. I'm supposed to be writing about maintenance and yet I can't seem to get my food choices under control. This has me thinking that it is best to avoid this space all together and perhaps you will not notice. I think you are smarter than that though and you have already figured it out. Sigh.
I think as though I've been dealing with the “last meal” mentality. I know I need to get back on track and the new WW program changes rolling out this week makes me energized again. So I keep telling myself that this splurge is the “last splurge for a while.” The only problem is that it isn't the last splurge because I splurge again at the next meal or the next day. I believe my thinking is perhaps skewed.
My trainer that I've been with for the last four weeks is pretty health conscious. She counts calories and has been working out like crazy so she can enjoy some holiday treats/splurges. This has been helpful in that it does make me think about my food choices. Of course, after thinking about it I've still been making the wrong choices. But regardless, I am giving it some thought. I mentioned I was thinking of eating out tonight and she tried to encourage me not to. She has been saying stuff like “is that going to be helpful to your goals.” I almost went home and had found something for dinner but instead I went out. I am also eating a sweet treat as I write this blog.
See, I told you I was a phony. (hangs head in shame) I also feel guilty. I know I shouldn't feel guilty but I do. I've already got some food/drink plans lined up for Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. I will attend my WW meeting on Thursday to learn the new program. I am not sure yet if I'll start tracking again. I think it would be a good idea to get used to the new Smart Points values for the foods I will be eating, even if that means higher point amounts. I know I need to re-focus so I can stop all this nonsense.
I hope you can forgive me for my absence and my lack of healthy eating.