Happy
Tuesday.
I
met up with my family in Caldwell for breakfast this morning. My
Aunt Flo (yes, my real Aunt Florine) was in town from California so
my grandparent, parents, aunt, and other great aunt all got together
for a visit. It was wonderful to see her and I always wish she lived
closer.
I'm
in house cleaning and laundry mode today. Dawny is coming to visit
this weekend from Spokane. We are going to walk the FitOne 10K like we did last year and I am also hosting a wine party at my house on
Saturday. I'm sort of cleaning in shifts to make it more manageable!
Yesterday I also tackled mowing the lawn.
I
went to the liquor store last night to get the stuff needed to make a
White Russian. My sister Katie introduced me to them when we were in
Vegas on our sister trip. I am not sure I make them quite as yummy.
Maybe they tasted better because I was already drunk? Needless to
say, I'm experimenting with the ratio of Kahala, vodka, and half and
half.
The
liquor store is right next to the WW center. When I pulled into the
parking lot with only 15 minutes to spare I remembered that Natalie
teaches the Monday night meeting. I knew I couldn't really get in
and out of liquor store without being seen and I also wanted to stop
and say hi once I realized she was there. I stopped into the liquor
store first (after all it closed earlier...priorities). I felt like
I needed to lie as to why I was buying the fixings for a White
Russian. Yes, I am hosting a party on Saturday but I also had every
intention to open up those bottles later in the evening.
I
ended up having a great conversation with Natalie and the
receptionist. I am in a bit of denial right now about all that is
going on with my weight and my WW program. I owe you a long post
with all my thoughts, I've just not spent the time to sit down and
write it all down. Natalie gave me much to think about in what is my
WHY for wanting to lose this re-gain. My WHY now isn't the same WHY
as when I started losing weight at 304 pounds. I'm not the same
person I was back then and the situation this time around is much
different.
I'm
still doing some thinking about it all. Maybe the White Russians are
helping?
3 comments:
you make me laugh REALLY hardm and OUT loud.! ha
I read your blog a lot. It is very honest and helpful to me.
I too am struggling.
Actually, and very honestly, I am ready for the program overhaul that will be introduced in November. I am so ready. I guess I'm burnt out and just need something new. I will accept it, whatever it is, and my leader told me the change is BIG.
Well anyway, don't give up. Weight loss and maintenance are hard. I feel a new program is a new fresh start. Maybe that's wrong thinking, but there it is. I just want to wipe out these last few years which have been emotionally painful. So yes, new sounds good. I guess it's symbolic.
We can do this!
That's very interesting about the changing "why". I think I have the same issue, my why is very different now! Something to think about, thanks :)
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