I’ve been on the fence about keeping up with
my personal training sessions.
I think part of why I am wishy-washy is partly
because of cost (not that I can’t afford it but $240 a month is a big chuck of
change) and that Tyson keeps pushing me to come in three days a week vs. two
days. I joked with him via text message
that he was trying to bleed my dry. He responded
telling me that he is trying to help me reach my goals. There is no doubt that Tyson is much more
driven than I am. 
So maybe that is what makes me nervous about keeping
up with the training sessions. I really
don’t have any major goals other than to lose weight and become healthier. I don’t strive to be stronger or have huge
muscles or what not. I just want to work
out and go about my day not really stressing over it. I do know that Tyson is good at pushing me
and so for that reason, I need to keep at it.
But there is also that part of me that wants to just do it on my own
again so I don’t have to worry about letting anybody down.
I had a good session on Monday and Tyson was mindful
that it was my first time back after a week off and that he needed to go easy
on me for fear of making me really want to quit coming. I was thankful of that and yet also felt like
I still got in a good workout. We met again on Wednesday but worked more on PT with my bum knee. My right knee has been out of whack for several weeks and I know that is also stressing me out. Maybe it
was just being away from it for a week that has made me timid about going
again? Or maybe it is because I know
that training at the gym is hard and that I have to push myself out of my
comfort zone.
Either way, I am just not sure about how I feel in
general. I have a couple more sessions
to use up of the 12 session package I bought in December. Even if I decide not to continue with
training (which I don’t think I actually will) then I’d still be seeing Tyson
at the gym if I made use of my membership.
That would be awkward for sure. I’m
not really sure what the right answer is.
2 comments:
So I read this and I thought "but she isn't letting him down. She's letting herself down and coming up with excuses." Which sounds kinda mean but it came from a place of love. Having someone safely help you will help you reach your goals and hopefully not hurt yourself but also push you. It also means there is no excuse not to go to the gym because someone is waiting for you. I started a yoga membership this month because yes I can practice at home for free but having a teacher help me sink into stretches or tell me if I am going to hurt myself. I consider it a gift to myself.
Anyway, hugs friend. It sounds like you are feeling a little defeated and I know that feeling. I haven't been under 227 since November.
This is only my 2 cents. Don't keep working out with him if you are just worried about running into him at the gym. If anything he should be happy to see that you are still coming to the gym. If you feel like it has made a difference that is worth the cost and helping you get to your goals of losing weight then it might be worth it. No matter what choose you decide on it has to be 100% about you and what you want!
Good luck girl!!
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