I
have a medical appointment today with a new doctor. I have no
history with this person and he/she doesn't know my time spent going
up the scale and my time spent going down the scale nor do they know
how the last year and half have been mostly ups and little downs.
It makes me nervous. All those old feelings of guilt start to
re-surface. Will there be comments about my weight? Do my
cholesterol numbers look remotely healthy? Why haven't I been
exercising more?
I'm
left feeling like I should have tried harder, done more, and been
less selfish when it comes to food temptations and my body.
I
hate this feeling. And this feeling is what should drive me to made
changes. I don't know why I struggle so much. It is like a switch
has been flipped and that person I was who worked so hard to lose 130
pounds just isn't there anymore. I can't discredit all of it. Part
of her is still there but I miss that other part. When I felt whole
I stuck to it and didn't falter so much.
Food
is fuel. Food is fuel. Food is fuel....
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