Even though my eating has not been as on track as it was last week, I plan to hit up my WW meeting on Monday evening before work. I am feeling a little bit of that WI anxiety wishing I had done more sooner. It was a really great feeling having a loss last week. I’ll be sad if I gain but honestly, I’ve not done much to prevent it. I ate out more this week than last week but I also brought food from home some days too. One positive is I haven’t had much sugar/sweets this week.
I've had a bit of some negative thinking make its way into my head after not being able to fit into a costume dress I ordered through Amazon. There is a weekend in September that Silver City hosts its annual Open House and I have been looking for a pioneer/prairie costume to wear. I found one online that according to the reviews fit the woman’s daughter who was a size 18. Well…that wasn’t the case for me as it didn’t fit. It was a bit snug in the arms and then wouldn’t zip. Even if it would have fit, it didn’t appear to be a very comfortable fabric and would have been quite hot. So I suppose it is good that it wasn’t the costume dress I was seeking.
What is difficult about the dress not fitting is that it is sort of the reverse of when you lose weight and don't think a smaller size will fit but it does. Now that I have walked amongst Skinny-Land, I feel I am smaller than I actually am in reality. So unlike that elated feeling you get when the smaller size fits…it is a deflating feeling with the large size doesn’t fit. I have gotten so good at avoiding the problem that I don’t think reality really sets in until I try on clothing.
I’m still on the hunt for some sort of dress attire that will fit the theme. I think I’ll hit up some thrift stores when I have extra time (wait…what is that concept?? I’m not sure I know what extra time is) and see if I can piece something together that fits and looks good. I try to remember that I can’t change the events of today but I can work on changing the events of the future.
So…here is to hoping my scale check-in doesn’t throw me off the deep in.